Hello. It’s me. I would say I’m back but even saying that is too much of a commitment right now. What I am is here, writing, expressing myself being creative and it feels good. It took me so long to get here, to fight back the negative thoughts, self doubts and soul sucking procrastination but I’m here. There has been so much happening in the world, in my world and the biggest lesson I have learned in the year plus since my last post is GRACE.
Grace for me means that it’s ok to not be ok. It’s to be scared of the unknown, the dark tunnel and what’s around the corner. I slacked off, did everything EXCEPT for the things I should be doing and focusing on and that’s ok. I could have, would have and should have been further along in my life, career, journey, weight loss, finances… whatever and that’s ok.
What I have learned is that motivation is great but it can only take you so far. Motivation will get you to start the journey/project but the minute you fall off or have a bad day, motivation can be a bully in your head filling you mind will with guilt an shame until you quit all together.
This is where grace fits in.
When you give yourself grace it allows you to have those moments or days or even weeks when you cannot get out of your own way. Its hard I know. But grace is the one thing I can give to myself to quiet those negative thoughts and try again. I told myself today, ” you really wanted to write this blog and was so excited about it don’t quit. Do it for yourself, just write 1 post today that’s all and see how it feels.” So here I am writing, and I can honestly say it feels so good.
Grace is different from motivation because it comes from a place of love not obligation.
When you practice grace for oneself it is practice self care and self love.
What I’m not going to do is commit myself to writing EVERY SINGLE DAY, NO EXCUSES. Hard pass chief. I’m not going to do that to myself, and you shouldn’t do it to yourself either.
Where are there some areas in your life that you can give yourself grace? Instead of forcing yourself to working out every day how about 2 times a week? Or maybe find a youtube fitness video that’s only 10 mins long. If you don’t like to run, then don’t run. Try jump roping, hiking, bike riding, roller skating anything that gets your heart rate up.
If you miss a day or 2 or 3 its ok, the world isn’t going to end I promise. When we read about successful people and all the hard work it took for them to become successful its not because they are hyper motivated and organized. They gave themselves grace and the grace is what kept them going. When one idea did not work, it was grace that gave them the ability to see their mistakes and shift gears.
I invite you all to give yourself a dose of grace everyday, just a teaspoon will do and you will be surprised at it can do for you.